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Ronery

Sun Oct 15, 2006, 3:43 AM
  • Mood: Neglect
  • Listening to: "Me, myself, and I" by Beyonce
I am, and have been, lonely. Partially I am having stress that is just making me depressed, but mostly I feel like no one cares about me. I know I have friends, but it's like I'm there when they have needs, but when I need something, they're busy or just don't feel like it.

Little things like calling when they say they will, or keeping a promise, even writing a note that only says "hi" means a lot when it seems no one is paying attention. It's surprising how little that has been going on in my life, but there it is.

I recently got a new job, which I am enjoying very much, and I look forward to working everyday. It's sad that the highlights in my life are when I'm on the clock. Even the guys I work with are more interested in me than my friends. I know everyone is busy, hell, I'm busy, it's just that when you really want something, you make time, and expect me to make time for your stuff too.

I just wish I had some support, someone who would be there for me the way I am for so many people. I've told the people in my life that that's what I need right now, but nothing has changed, and I've by and large gotten so discouraged I'm now greatly tempted to stop trying entirely. I know that part of growing up has to do with changing the kinds of people I surround myself with, but it's hard when I have years of history.

I'm not looking for pity, and I could do without suggestions to just "cheer up", I just wanted to put myself out there in the hope that putting everything in writing might prompt some change, even if it's just in myself and my choices.

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  • Current Residence: somewhere in my head
  • Interests: books, writting, drawing, music
  • Favourite movie: Donnie Darko
  • Favourite band or musician: Mushroomhead
  • Favourite genre of music: death metal
  • Favourite artist: Escher
  • Wallpaper of choice: Blood
  • Skin of choice: Sensative
  • Favourite game: love
  • Favourite gaming platform: PS2
  • Favourite cartoon character: Felix the Cat
  • Personal Quote: "You do what you are"
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:iconnontoxicpenguin:
I am sorry about today, I will start keeping track of these things better.
:iconangelofdeathenvy:
Here. I copied this from Moon rabbit! =D Today Is Bestfriend Day.
Send This To All Your Friends, And Me If I Am 1.
If You Get 7 Back You Are Loved!

1-3 you're a bad friend
4-6 you're an ok friend
7-9 you're a good friend
10-& Up you're a great friend

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Send this rose to everyone you care about!!

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Do I look crazy Chibi - san? I'm just envious. But I prefer to be psychotic. :blackrose: :blackrose:
:iconangelofdeathenvy:
Thanks for the watch!!! Now you are being watched too! =D

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Do I look crazy Chibi - san? I'm just envious. But I prefer to be psychotic. :blackrose: :blackrose:
:iconangelofdeathenvy:
Thanks! Sure! =D

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Do I look crazy Chibi - san? I'm just envious. But I prefer to be psychotic. :blackrose: :blackrose:
:iconcarnal-knowledge:
Thanks, I appreciate your comments so far, feel free to comment on my older stuff if you like.

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Good morning master's scary friend!
:iconshinitenshienvy:
Thanks for the Fav and Watch!
I'm watching you too!

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Do I look crazy Chibi - san? I'm just envious. But I prefer to be psychotic.
:iconcarnal-knowledge:
Why do you keep getting banned?

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Good morning master's scary friend!
:iconsenscodemon:
Hello there. I saw your suite on Nightscape and noticed your on DA. Im Daisuku on there.
Nicfe art and Writing you got. Ive only read 1 of the peices but maybe ill read some more.

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... For I am Sayer of Smites... but i need a big scyth.
:iconcarnal-knowledge:
Thank you, feel free to comment.

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Good morning master's scary friend!
:iconmintaizawabird:
thank you very much XD

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